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My heart aches right now.

A fellow July Momma just found out here baby has no hearbeat at 31 weeks.  Sometime today she will give birth to her still baby - the baby she was so close to touching, holding, and kissing alive.

Losing Logan was different.  I saw him, touched him, watched him outside my womb for 11 days. 

I also watched him die.  In my arms.  Listening to his heartbeat slow, fade into the hallowness that filled my empty womb.

Why?  Why does this happen? 

My heart is literally aching, but not in my chest.  It has placed itself it my throat, forming a knot that threatens to release tears.

Tears of sorrow.  Tears for my pain.  Tears for her pain.  Tears for the fears that this too could still happen to me. 

I have less than 4 weeks.  Baby Girl was just moving.  A sigh a {temporary} relief.

Life is so precious, so fleeting.  There are no guarantees...

Life is so unfair.

{{ sending out all my thoughts and prayers to my dear fellow July Momma and her family....The days and months to follow will be excruciating, but your angel will be by your side every step of the way }}