June 18, 2015
Emma,
My baby girl… This year has been full of change for you and I. Change that has been drastic, sometimes uncertain, full of twists and turns, the path not always clear. Change that has exercised the muscles of our hearts, minds, bodies, and souls sometimes to excruciating lengths, but always increasing our strength, perfecting us out of our weaknesses. My darling, you have taught me so many wonderful life lessons. You have been the inspirational mirror and model that I needed to stay the course, the push through the anxiety and fears that have been set before me. God gave you to me, my Rainbow child, restoring color and balance to my often dark and stormy world three years ago. And to this day, your sunshine brings those same rainbow colors back to life. You are radiant. The sparkle in your eyes comes straight from the sunshine in your soul. Your smile is full of life and love. Your laughter, that adorable high pitched giggle, Oh how sweet the sound! It brings both our spirits back to life, breathing fresh air into our moments, into our days. You have taught me resilience, always being adaptable and remaining your happy self. You have taught me the power of grace and the depth of forgiveness, even when I feel I have failed you, you are quick to remind me how beautiful I am and stating plainly “I forgive you, Mommy, I’m sorry I was frustrated.” How simple. How necessary. But often forgot in our adulthood, confused and muddled by compounded wounds. Not you, my love. You live in the moment, but still understand the power of recognizing, acknowledging, and resolving the potential breech in our close bond. Out of the mouth of babes! And how wonderful you are for reminding me of that daily. When I feel I have failed you most as a mother, as a parent, you let me know, in your own adorable, innocent way, that it’s ok. You don’t judge me. You always accept me. And even when we have our tough moments, often times butting heads and fleshing out our indifferences, because let’s face it, the odds are not ever in our favor since we are both women and both Gemini's, our sassy nature will never outweigh our tender hearts and compassionate ways. If I have taught you nothing else, I hope it is that.
Remain confident, but never unkind.
Remain steadfast and strong, but always tender.
Remain wise, but always humble.
Remain YOU, beautiful YOU! And never compromise who you are unless that compromise is the promise of change that will make you a better version of You.
Remain whole, and if you find yourself utterly broken, remember that you, my darling daughter, are the Sunshine birthed into my life. Your brokenness allows more love in and lets your Sunshine out.
Emma June, you are the daughter of my spirit, giving me a new life and new love for the path laid before me. You are and will always be my best birthday gift ever.
I love you to the moon...You love me to the sun.
I love you - for always!
I love you - for always!
Happy 3rd Birthday, Baby Girl!
Love always,
Momma
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